So I know it’s February and this should have been written in January… but here we are.
Before I greet you, I need to say to 2019.
2019 for me was an unusual year. I’m not sure if I’m happy with the year or not. I had a huge balance of both good and bad things happening.
Some of the highlights of 2019 for me are huge.
First of all, I got a puppy! This is probably the best thing I’ve ever done. I’ve always wanted to have a dog, and I finally have one. I’ve never experienced the love I feel for this dog. I would actually die for him. I found my best friend.
I love you, Hunter.
Next thing I did that was huge… I GRADUATED FROM UNIVERSITY.
This was a huge achievement for me. University is what I called hell. It was a HORRIBLE 4 years for me. There were so many moments where I just wanted to quit. But I didn’t, and I graduated with a high grade. I’m proud of me.
Then another huge thing that happened, Dave and I got our first home. This was such a big step for us, but I am so happy we did this. It was a huge decision to stay away from my family, but the family we are starting to build ourselves is perfect, (ps. No babies, just furbabies)
Now… they were a few highlights that made my year, but there were many negatives.
I’m not going to go into detail on these, frankly I don’t want to.
But around September, I thought I’d finally got a breaking point into starting my career. This quickly went downhill and I was left unemployed. I thought I’d be able to find another job fairly quickly, but I really struggled and went 4 months being unemployed.
This REALLY impacted my mental health. I fell into a major depressive episode. I really started questioning all my life choices. I started questioning my self worth. I started questioning what was wrong for me.
“The magic in new beginnings is truly the most powerful of them all.” ―Josiyah Martin
However, in January 2020, I got offered, not 1, not 2 but 3 dream career choices! This was a difficult decision to make, which one to pick? (This will be another post, there’s a lot that went into my decision). But I picked one and started it.
This has made me SO excited for this year to come.
2020 is going to be the year I build myself and I’m so fucking excited.
Here’s to the next year!